Saturday, November 10, 2018

Fifty-Fifty Makes 100 Too

Wokheii . . . !
It’s been a really serious while since my last chitchat post.
Today I bring up a kinda sensitive topic. I came to this topic after my weeks watching Crazy Rich Asians, and then went on with reading the second and third book. When I was reading the second book, I did some reading about the “Yellow” thing that had been mentioned over and over in articles relating to Crazy Rich Asians, did some so-called research about it in websites just to calm my curiosity down. And I was so satisfied! I fed myself with new food J. As additional, I watched some interviews of the actors. The interesting thing is that there would always be questions about how it was to be an Asian-half-blood, living in the-other-half-blood country, of how it is to be born and even grew up there, but still couldn’t be seen completely as “part of the nation”. They did admit that there would always be barrier; being seen differently and alienated from the “pure-blood”.

This doesn’t just happen at the-other-half-blood country. In Asia, back to their Asian-half-blood country, where they are not accustomed to the language, norms, and habits, they surely are easy to be pointed out from an all-asian crowd; seen as “not part of the nation”, again.

The same thing happens to me and other parties that are similar to me in the perspective I’m going to picture later on.

I was born in Indonesia, and of a Chinese descent. Lots of story can be found about this Indonesian of Chinese descent. Okay back to the initial topic of being seen “half-blood”, Indonesian of Chinese descent got the indistinguishable issue as the Asian-American did. I, myself, identify myself as an Indonesian since I was born in Indonesia, from Indonesia citizen parents, I’ve got Indonesian Identity Card, Indonesian passport, what else? I am a completely registered citizen of Indonesia, dude.

My own experience, and may be of some other Indonesian of Chinese descent too, is a bit disappointing. I meant, because I am Indonesian and I have Chinese ancestor, I got this story to tell (No offense please). I was mocked of being Chinese descent with the call “Cina”. Well, in case you are new to this, the word “Cina” in Indonesia has pejorative meaning which corners the Indonesian of Chinese descent of not being “pure” Indonesian, being distinguished from the indigenous. There was a couple occurrence where some random not-yet-enlightened guys yelled at us “Cina! Kelen cuma numpang!” (whew, sounds so rude) or the other yelling, “Go back to your country!”, and I was like Wait, what? I’m still in Indonesia, aren’t I? I’m in my home country, and in my hometown, dude! I should have shown him my identity card #hiuuhhh. Those people are so far left behind that they still see Indonesian of foreign origin as “mudblood”, come on~~.
Having Chinese ancestors doesn’t mean that I am not Indonesian, and that I should be seen as “different kind of animal”. In fact, it has been said that being born from Indonesian citizen (and even for my case it is from the both-Indonesia-citizen couple), despite of their race, ethnicity or religious background will include you as Indonesian. Well, not just Indonesian with Chinese ancestry, it also happen to those with India and other race ancestry. I’m telling about the Chinese just because I am the Chinese version sample.

Indonesian of foreign descent and American of Asian descent are surely having this feeling of confusion: I was born here but I am not fully accepted here. Look back to my descent, I can't count myself in to them too since I am neither born nor live with the custom. I speak in language of my motherland even more fluently than language of my descent.

And, as Indonesian, I believe our youngsters are more well-educated and have learnt to see Indonesia as a diversed and colourful country that no longer differentiating “pribumi” and “non-pribumi”. I am happy that generation of my peer is now aware of the multicultural beings and even bring them up in more positive ways to make sure that this diversity will strengthen our unity.

Lastly, I’m closing this chitchat by saying: I am not staying in Indonesia. I live in Indonesia.

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