Another Thing I Like

Have you ever found pictures of luxurious bungalow on Instagram? The ones depict sunset sky through the all-glass windowpanes, giving you the feeling of warmth, comfort, and tenderness. The sun is below the horizon and the sun’s rays scattered; the twilight sky is just so perfect. Seeing that view grows me the melancholic feeling, scenarios pop out on my mind, positive energy comes under the spotlight to replace the negativity of the day as if telling me to lighten the rest of the day with only me and my imagination.

This kind of pictures has been my motivation since my college years. When I was being suffocated by all the homework, exams, and even my part time job, pictures of twilight were always my mood booster. I could regain my fighting spirit and put hope in everything I did. I would set the pictures as my phone or laptop wallpaper, chat room background, or even I could just spent some time to scroll all the pictures in my gallery. Taking a glance at the picture, facing upward to capture the sky view, and taking a deep breath were the three-step ritual to tell myself that I could face whatever hard then.

Life isn’t easy now, and it wasn’t too then.

In addition to the pictures, I usually had some motivational phrase made by me for me. Some lines just came to my mind while I stared at the pictures, and I found the sentences and the pictures were great combination of mood booster. I was used to longing all the beautiful pictures of mersmerising places, put it as my goal, imagined that I would appreciate myself by visiting those places after I finished my tasks. I kept using it as my motivation without even had the chance to be in those places. For couples of time I told myself, “Is it okay to do it this way? This won't disappoint myself, will it?”

And till now, I still do it. Sometimes, in a dark room, sit facing the window, observing the yellow sky turns orange. The sunlight is just too bright that I let my palm cover part of the view, letting the sunset ray passes through my fingers. Haaaaaaahhh, nothing to say, just deep breaths without anything on my mind, enjoying that very moment for a while. No candidates asking for interview schedules, no users asking for candidates, no superior asking for progress report, no phone calls, no urgent emails needs replying, just me taking deep breaths and let myself heal.